so does the dirt, by saint joan!

so does the dirt

by saint joan!

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1.	morning two 01:30		buy track
2.	expiration dates 01:24	lyrics	buy track
i think the world is ending but i've never been this safe before at least i get to end it with you we’ll go on expiration dates pretend it can all be the same we don't have to be sixteen anymore i think i'm forgetting what the glass sounded like just to make my therapist smile and you deserve the room with yellow walls that you’ve been dreaming of i hope i have a place inside touch me/dont
3.	creature 02:01	lyrics	buy track
cut me loose like i was something new did you feel the knife like it was you or did i come easy like i was meant to be something that belonged to you i will not come when you call i will not come when you call dangle on the leash of what you want i will roll your world inside my palms now you would like to heal that chasm in your side but i recede, i bite i will not come when you call i will not come when you call arctic hackles bristling i rise bare your teeth to cut me down to size i hope that i am more than everything you made i’m learning to be safe i will not come when you call i will not come when you call
4.	ganzfeld 02:22	lyrics	buy track
i got a tattoo where you hit me sometimes i can still see the bruise wish i remembered if you kissed me can’t tell people like you do burned the roof of my mouth with all the nothing i said do you think the neighbours could hear what you did if i lock all the doors if i wear too many clothes only shower late when i’m alone if i dont have a body anyone would want to touch would you finally leave me alone i moved pretty far away then i guess you could still follow me i dont think you know where I’ve been but itd be easy to watch me burned the roof of your mouth with all the lies you told do you think the neighbours would care if they know if i lock all the doors if i wear too many clothes only shower late when i’m alone if i dont have a body anyone would want to touch would you finally leave me alone
5.	guido's parking lot 02:24	lyrics	buy track
tired of crying in cars tired of clothes tired of thinking you made me good can't remember how old i was does that make it better or worse i wanna know who i’d be if i could sit in the backseat ask me about my bruised knees tell me what you think about me swallow yr apologies if they demand relief losing myself when i give you what you need don’t tell me what you want i don’t deserve to know it’s getting cold again i’ll shrink back into my coat i wish i knew when to say when you touch me i’m not safe when you need me i can’t stay when i leave you’re in the way swallow yr apologies if they demand relief wish i had known how to tell you what i need
6.	jack mandora 00:05		buy track

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released November 22, 2019

cover art by gwen wood
title from wildfire by hand grenade job (handgrenadejob.bandcamp.com)
audio on jack mandora from the favorite poem project (www.favoritepoem.org/poem_TheSongoftheBananaMan.html)
all mistakes mine